A pastor/ministry leader I respect recently told with me he has not “written any books” because of his need to keep up the perception that he is “highly intelligent and
theologically astute.” His fear, he
said, is that if he puts something in writing, it will give others the chance
to critique his work and expose that he might not be as smart
or theologically bullet proof as he would like them to think.
My first response was how grateful I was for his honesty. I
don’t hear that kind of truthful confession very often – especially from
ministry leaders who keep their jobs by creating the perception that they are
better, and better off, than they are.
My second response was FEAR – because he had just asked me
for a copy of the newly released bible study I co-wrote with my good friend
Phil Herndon. As I handed
him a copy of the Bible Study, I admitted to him that I was sweating . . .
because I was.
Then I remembered thinking as we worked on the study: “Don’t write this as an apologetic on feelings for your seminary professors – write it for people
who are hungry and thirsty of heart.”
As I handed the study to this pastor, my fear imagined him pouring
over each line of the study, marking it up with a red pen, and sending it back
to me with all the mistakes we had made and all the hermeneutical guidelines we
had broken.
If this pastor reads the study
to find out what he disagrees with or doesn’t like about it, then he is not who
we wrote the Bible Study for. I wrote
the Bible Study with Phil Herndon for people like me.
Ten years ago I was surrounded by LIFE but not living fully in it. I heard someone call this disconnect between a person’s head and heart the longest 18 inches on Earth. God came to find me and bring me back to Himself, myself, my family - and ultimately to the gifts He gave me and the work I’ve been called to do (Eph.2:10). Now, through the ministry God has called me to lead, I have the great privilege of helping men and women around the world make this same journey - to God, to how God made them, to their families, and then to their calling.
Co-writing the Bible Study with Phil
Hendon was a work of deep gratitude that I pray will yield much fruit in the
lives of those who are longing for more and know, by their own experience, that
there is more.
I do care about what my seminary professors think about
what we did because I want to be faithful to the Scriptures and responsible to
those who will trust us to have created a tool that will help them engage a
very taboo and misunderstood topic in the church: FEELINGS. But I
want so much more than that . . . for me and for those who get hold of the study
and go through it on their own, with another person, or in a small group or
class.
The Study is about – feeling, needing, desiring, longing, and hoping. The
door to the recognition of our need is feeling – the human response to facing
life on life’s terms (post Genesis 3). Sadly, we have confused what
happens when we don’t tell the truth about our feelings with the feelings themselves. When we lose touch with our feelings, we lose touch with the depth and
recognition of the very need that opens the door to all intimate
relationships.
In every group we
tested it with (men, women, pastors, couples), even long standing relationships
reached new depths of intimacy. I’ve
worked on many projects in 34 years of knowing Christ, none I am more
passionate about than this.
We heard from a godly 70 year old woman today. She said, "This study is hard . . . it's not hard to do, it's hard having to face my feelings!"
We did not write the study for the masses because we knew it would be "too hard." We created it for the hungry and thirsty of heart - whomever they might be whatever age they might be.
